You once said that you didn’t want me to find out how well you treat her
You said you understood that it takes more than compassion to let go off feeling dejected
I thought that I showed up at a perfect time, the time when you and her were about to break up
I thought you no longer had any hope for her and will no loner tolerate the pain she had caused you
I thought my gentleness could give you the universe
I thought I could fill in all the empty space in your heart
Focusing on being by your side, and making up for all her mistakes
Perhaps I’ve been too naïve, thinking that a miracle would happen
I thought that at the very end, you will gradually realize that her heart was no longer on you
You continue to be indifferent to my concerns for you.
The “I thought” was all along just my thoughts.
She made you cry yet you forgave her with a smile
So all along, you’ve already decided who you wanted to be with
I thought I was strong enough
but as I became more disappointed as days pass
If you had given me less hope then my hopes towards you wouldn’t have become so excessive
But I’ve lost with so much despair
If you had given me less hope
Then my hope towards you wouldn’t have become so excessive
Hey I really don’t know why. I still think about you every night and waking up with your images running in my mind. Is it a sign? A sign to tell me that I am not over you? A sign telling me that I should tell you how much you really meant to me without the need to lie again that I don’t and asked to leave? I never wanted you to desert me, now you did. Hmm it’s about 2 months and I had not gotten over you.
Perhaps you are really not over her and I am just there as a rebound or something? I really don’t know. Perhaps till today I really don’t know.
I really miss you, miss those times. What hurts the most is being so close, don’t know what to say, watching you walk alway.
Guessed what I always say is way too harsh, sometimes even on twitter.
Well, you are not even the first person I did that too, even the closest and the best stupid kid, my BFF had been lectured by me everywhere even directly just for some nonsense. His is nonsense, he is my infatuation. What about you? I guess you should know it clear by now.
Never been like this before, perhaps I put in too much this time, really too much that everything about you web updates hurt my mind so much.
I wouldnt ask you love me, but hope that one say you will remember me and come back.
I never fall so hard before, previously I didn’t make an effort to care about them, they walked out of me after I walk away for another reason. But then again we are close but not close anymore but talking.
Or maybe as i see, I guess you had found another thus this is no turning back.
Maybe we will never be friends again. Maybe you are really different from the rest, E And H, we are still on talking terms. We aren’t.
Again and again. Here we go again.
When i do, you said i don’t.
When i did, you said i never..
Why are you so afraid to love…
because you are afraid to be left behind?
because you cannot afford to feel the feeling of being hurt?
because you cannot let go of the past?
because you do not want that history will repeat itself?
because it is hard for you to detach once attached?
because you…
Fuck it, no mood to study at all.
REALLY NO MOOD. Sick sick sick.. fuck okay
